An Introduction To Our Life

So I came about this idea for a blog one night while I couldn't sleep. It's not like I don't already have an online journal, but those friends are vast and have varying lifestyles that differ from mine. And while they are supportive, they know the real me. And as much as you care about someone, if they keep talking about the same thing over and over again, then it can get annoying or exhausting. And really, they don't understand. Honestly, I didn't want to put them through that. I need a place where I can only talk about my issues, feelings, and all things related to me and my husband and our difficulties in trying to get pregnant.

So a little background.

Hi, I'm K, I'm 28 and I'm from a little place on the east coast of Canada. I met my husband almost 8 years ago. We worked together and were set up by a co-worker. By our second date, we knew that we wanted to go steady with each other. We were together 4 years when he proposed to me. We moved in together within a few months of getting engaged. We were engaged 2 years when we got married in a big wedding. This September will mark our 2 year wedding anniversary.

We have three cats who are our furchildren. We knew before we got engaged that we wanted a family. C is an only child and I have one brother who loves his bachelor lifestyle. We are the only ones to provide grandchildren to our parents. And they have been ready for grandchildren since long before our engagement was announced. Our parents, while anxious to be grandparents, are incredibly supportive of us. They know that we are having trouble trying to conceive.

About four months before our wedding, C and I decided that we were ready to start trying for children. We knew that it probably wouldn't happen overnight so what was so wrong with starting before the wedding. We've been trying since then to get pregnant with no success. While this isn't the end of the world, its a little disheartening. We were not the only ones in our group of friends and family to get married at this time and everyone who has gotten married before us, around the same time as us or after us have seen about 95% of these couples get pregnant. It hurts a bit cause these people didn't try as long as us, they just decided and it happened. And its not their fault, but it still stings and leaves me crying every month when I get my period.

It's incredibly exhausting for me. And while my friends are supportive and listen, its all I think about and they don't want to hear this from me everytime they talk to me. Everyone gives advice and tell you "it will happen when its suppose to happen", "stop trying and it will happen", but these same people got pregnant without a problem. They don't know what its like to have everyone you know either have kids or get pregnant and tell you while you just ask yourself, "What the hell am I doing wrong?". So this is my place to share my stories, to tell you the things that people don't tell you about. The emotions, the fears, the day to day everyday stuff that you go through when you are having trouble trying to conceive. So if you stick around to read, don't be afraid to say hi. And if you are trying to conceive with no success, welcome and I hope that we can find some comfort together. Cause no one should go through this alone.

Love and Hugs,
K