A Case of the Holiday Blahs

Happy Easter to my friends and family celebrating the holiday today!

It's Easter Sunday morning, C is gone to work and I'm lazing on my couch watching Reba and drinking a cup of green tea. I'll be going to my parents for supper but something is off, I feel like something is missing. Dad is home for Easter, for once. My brother is in Edmonton this Easter and is probably hung over today, if hes not on site working. We visited the inlaws shortly last night. There are no gifts, no getting ready for mass, none of the normal stuff that comes with Easter. And while I'm pretty sure that I'm having the morning that most parents wish they had, I don't want it.

I miss the time when the holidays (all holidays) had a special spark to them. The spark that comes with a child's joy and wonder. It feels like something is missing and as I sit here and reflect, I know its the laugh and joy of a child. The happiness of kids hopped up on chocolate, while I would be in the kitchen with both of the moms learning to make my first Easter turkey dinner while the dads and my husband take the kids outside to play with their toys. I want to see my 4 grown strong men trip over themselves trying to forsee every move of the child.

I feel this every major holiday. Christmas Eve isn't as fun as it used to be. There are still gifts and traditions, but no kids around to spoil and celebrate the holiday with leaves me feeling empty. I want children so that I can incorporate the traditions we have now with a little ones. Than there's Thanksgiving, that we really don't celebrate. Dad usually works away, and me and mom don't make a big deal about it. We just don't celebrate the holidays like we used to. And I miss it.

So today we have a bit of the Holiday blahs going on. I'm on my second cup of tea, cross stitching and playing some computer games. I'm just resting, relaxing and wishing I had what so many people have today. Hello pity party, table of one please?

Love and Hugs,
K